Reminiscing Yesterday

Time passes like the wind that blows in my cheeks
But it feels like yesterday coz I still feel the pain
The pain of losing you, the one I’ve known for years
The reason why my tears keep falling

Hell I couldn’t get over you
You turn my world upside down
The moment you said you love me
But where are you now my knight?

Didn’t you feel the same way?
Have you forgotten me?
Had I hurt you so badly to run away from me?
Didn’t you feel that I didn’t mean what I’ve said?
I lied to you that even once I didn’t love you…
I was a fool to hide my feelings
A fool to let go of my first love
But want can I do my knight?
You’ve gone so far and it’s hard for me to reach you
We parted ways without saying anything
Was it forever my knight?
For Time have gone out and I miss you terribly

I’ve heard so much about you and the news kept hurting me
But what will I do my knight?
Should I tell you about it?
Or I’ll just keep it like yesterday?

But I guess it is useless now
For you don’t remember me anymore
Your love for me was already blown
Blown by the wind of time
And just like today I can only reminisce
Yeah that’s all I can do
The only thing I can do

I didn’t know what you’re thinking now
I know it’s not me
You’ll never want to think of someone
Who caused you so much pain
But as I wrote this poem for you
Maybe you’ll never have a chance to read it
I just want to tell you the truth behind my silence
It’s simply because I’m still guilty about us
About letting you slip away
And I know it will take so long to lessen it
It’s my fault why I’m miserable now
It’s because my feelings was left hanging
And I will never be alright unless I see you
I hope we could talk about it
It’s me who suffered so much
And I know it will stay unless you talk to me

I only want to say I’m sorry
I only want to say I miss you
I only want to say I’m happy for you
I only want to say I want to move on
And that I love you since you told me you do

My knight…
My first love…
I hope I could bring back to my old self
For I can’t find it now
I wanted to move on
But my self kept telling me I couldn’t
You’re shadow is still following me
I’m still living in the past
I couldn’t get over you
And I couldn’t forgive myself
I love you but it’s not the issue right now

All I really want is reconciliation
But it doesn’t mean I was lingering hope
That you will come back to me
I just wanna tell myself its over
That I need back off
And focused on something else
I wanted to forget you
But not the memories of my childhood love

My knight…
I still love you
I still remember you
And you’re the only me who made me happy
But I’m here to say Goodbye
Even if I love you
I know you don’t love me anymore
But someday, somehow I’ll find the right one
It could be you but it maybe someone else

Maybe he will treat me as you do
Or more that you did for me
But I will never forget the times
You’re here with me
Telling me you love me
Telling me you care
I told you have a space in my heart
A special one
But now I decided to keep it
Not because I don’t love you anymore
But because just like pigeons
I also need to fly and find my right place

Like you did
But before I end this poem
I just want to tell you my knight
I hope you remember me as someone
Who’s been a part of you
Your “Dear”
And you partner on the dance floor…

Thanks for the memories…..